I feel that my religious feeling are growing cold, & one thing I will say to you in confidence this is a very pleasant family to live in & I enjoy myself very much, but it is not a very good place to grow in grace, there is a great deal of talk on & about worldly matters on the Sabbath day & there is very little love between Mr. & Mrs. R & there are a great many arguments & jars in the family to be agreeable to me; Mrs. R has been very kind to me & I like her very much & I believe she is a good Christian woman, but Mr. R. is just next to nothing, but he has been very kind to me & likes me a great  deal better than I do him; but I blame Mrs. R too for scolding & ruling him so much, but she has had to manage so much & look ahead & provide, that I don't know that she is much to blame after all; Mrs. White, Mrs R's sister is a real lively intelligent woman but is not a Christian, & if we look at things right, the main object in life should be to prepare for that after higher life for which all other things were made, & yet - how much we are taken up
